WHOLENESS

From the Crystal Ally Deck

 Original writing by Kathryn Ravenwood

 

Division and duality are the push and pull of life. This or that. Yes or no. Go or stay. Regular or decaf. We choose one thing and let something else go. We rejoice and regret, win or lose, succeed or fail. Millions of events, thoughts, actions, and decisions make up the complicated stories of our lives. Nothing is simple. The past, present and future exist simultaneously within us – we struggle with that and try to make a linear sense of it. Time zooms along as we try to catch up or ride the wave of it. Mindfulness is lost in anxiety. We can feel frustrated and fragmented. Wholeness? What is that?

 

The card shown above always encourages me. A mosaic of little pieces of turquoise have combined into the matrix of a full circle. I can well imagine those individual bits strewn across space in a seemingly random pattern, the very essence of chaos. And yet, here they have gathered together and formed a whole. Turquoise itself is a matrix of different minerals which create the beautiful colors we treasure in the stone. The circle is the symbol of unbroken and eternal being and yet in the picture it, too, looks to be made of individual parts - perhaps like tree rings imprinting the annual influences that caused the tree to grow in a certain way; drought or flood, fire or disease, not enough sun, or an easy year allowing solid growth. How those parts and pieces, influences and conditions come together form the matrix of the tree. The same is true for you or me.

 

Wholeness lies not in unbroken perfection but in the play and arrangement of all the pieces. It is emotional, cellular, physical, mental, active, passive, energetic, vibrational, black and white and living color. Every aspect of our lives is what Normandi Ellis calls “our eternal becoming.” At any moment, with every breath, we are absolutely a whole being connected body to soul, living on earth and existing in spirit. Our matrix continues to evolve and build upon itself.  Like the card above, our Wholeness sits between the two pillars, between the dualities; the mosaic of the Whole holding the space within the dark void from which all possibility arises and from which we create our unique and sacred existence.

So take a breath. Exhale. Breathe again. While you are doing that your body cells are dying off and being replaced. The Earth is spinning around the Sun. Rivers are flowing, flowers are opening their buds, insects are singing, worms are making dirt from compost. Breathe. You are a collection of moments, each precious and never to be repeated again. You are a whirling energy gathering the wisdom of your experiences, your body, your mind, your heart. The Wholeness of who you are hangs like a great web shining with silky dew drops in the morning light. Every breath is a new beginning, every moment another mosaic in the matrix.

 

Nothing is perfect. The Navajo weavers, in respect to Great Spirit, deliberately created a flaw in each of their rugs. They knew we are humans, not perfection. Yet the finished rug would be an amazing piece of art and beauty, each passing of the shuttle drawing texture, color, prayers, songs, the warmth of the day, the smoke of the fire, the memory of sheep.

 

Let go of perfection. Rejoice in your Wholeness. Embrace each crazy, unknown, scary and beautiful piece of who you are. There will never be another like you.

...Kathryn Ravenwood 6.28.16

The Four of Cups - Taking a Time Out

From the Fenestra Tarot

The Four of CupsTaking a Time Out

Original writing by Kathryn Ravenwood

Sometimes it is just too much. Life may be rich and full but there comes a point when we feel we cannot take on – or feel  - one more thing. We need a time out, time to process and regroup.  The woman in the above card looks “done” to me. Three goblets sit upon her table. Maybe she has partaken of all three and is now fully sated and unable to consume one more drop. Or maybe she drank them all and found their contents lacking, unsatisfying, and certainly does not want any more of the same. Whatever the circumstances, as a fourth goblet is offered to her, she folds her arms and, completely uninterested, does not accept the offer. I can just hear her saying, “No. Really – no.” 

I so know how she feels.  

Those three goblets represent the previous card in the Tarot – the Three of Cups  - which was all about creativity and definitely being in a celebratory mood.  We loved, we partied, we expanded our emotional limits, we let the floodgates open and run free. But now, the Four of Cups is upon us.  We are maxed out and need the luxury of a time out, to process and feel our way through that watery world of emotions we just immersed ourselves in and so happily celebrated.  All that new emotional input has left us feeling floundering and washed out to sea, past the safety of the shoreline. Maybe extravagance caused us to lose track of how much we were emotionally expending. Perhaps we have taken on burdens that belong to others, not us. Maybe a personal relationship has challenged us past our comfort zone. It could be an over dose of empathy for the crazy world emotions constantly spewed out to us through the media.  Or maybe we simply have reached a point where all the touchy- feely living has put us into boredom and apathy.  

The Fours in the Tarot are about structure and foundation. The Four of Cups is telling us it is time to pull in, to allow some space and time while we regroup and sort out our feelings. We are called to step back and allow the creative jumble of the Threes to settle down into a new foundation and support, to re-establish some boundaries and get our bearings. We need to find out where the heck we are again. What in all that emotional input really works for us? What did we learn from it all? How have we overextended ourselves? Were we honest and authentic or did we perhaps party for the sake of selfish emotional indulgence?  It is wonderful to create and celebrate and bring forth the new, but then we need a place to put that energy, to apply it and let it work for us, to build upon it, to become more aware of just how our emotions are moving through us and out into the world. 

If you relate to the woman in the card, please give yourself the luxury of time out.  Going into a prolonged state of denial, angst, or boredom will not serve you well in the long run, but taking a conscious retreat and finding your emotional base again will be of life-long service to you. Maybe you need to learn to say “no” or “yes” based on what you really feel rather than what you think you should feel (please don’t should on yourself!)

Reach out if you need help. Be solitary if that would serve you better. Listen to any intuitive messages coming through – after all this is the suit of Cups – of emotions and intuition and the ability to tune in to Spirit’s promptings. 

So take a break and enjoy your journey.

Kathryn Ravenwood  May 20, 2016

The Star: Hope Springs Eternal

The Star

from The Phantomwise Tarot by Erin Morganstern

Original Writing by Kathryn Ravenwood

No matter how bad it gets, there is always Hope. I love the Star – as most of us do – because it is the Tarot’s promise of beauty and balance, guidance and direction. The previous card in the Tarot is the Tower of Destruction. Lightening has hit the Tower and it is falling down…I have written before on this card ( please see my blog at http://kathrynravenwood.blogspot.com/) and how I think it is one of the best allies in the deck, even though it can also be one of the most devastating. However, fall it does and with it are clouds of debris, ashes, flames, and great wailing and gnashing of teeth. It is sometimes hard to see our way through a Tower event – no matter what has caused our world to fall apart we feel hopeless, shot down, ruined. And yet, when everything settles down- there is the Star shining in the darkness, the Hope of better things to come. 

There is a Haiku that always reminds me of the Tower and  the Star:  "Barn's burnt down… now I can see the moon. (Masahide, Japanese poet, 1657? – 1723). The lesson of the Tower is the removal of obstacles and barriers and the Star is the reward. In the featured card we see a woman in balance. She sits on a rock emerging from water, and is centered between the two pyramids in the distance. Her long braid falls neatly down the middle of her back. She holds a pitcher of water in each hand, the contents of both equally flowing into the water around her as she faces the starry sky. This is a time of reflection and soul searching, a time to refill what has been depleted and feel the balance returning. We have had to let go and we have learned that even though we fell from the Tower we were not destroyed; the destruction was of that which was blocking us from seeing a higher vision, from connecting with the Guidance that is always there to help us re-connect with our higher self, to know ourselves to be both physical and spiritual beings, to feel the alignment with our mortal and divine natures. 

The Star is that new vision and it calls us to transformation, to use conscious awareness and intention to access the tools of the Magician to reform our lives. Those tools are the Swords of Clear Thinking, the Wands of Right Action, the Cups of Intuitive Emotions, and the Pentacles of our Manifestations in the physical world. The way is clear now, free of encumbrances, peaceful. As Tom Petty said, the future is wide open.” 

It is time to be the Star of your own life and realize the fulfillment of your dreams,  all those times you wished upon a star, all the nights you sat under the vault of the heavens and cried out for guidance and vision. Nothing is holding you back now. You are poised to go forward and upward from balance, vision, peace, and purposeful intention.  

Shine on.

…Kathryn Ravenwood 4.16.16

The Hanged Man – Tarot Deck Unknown

“I sit before flowers, hoping they will train me in the art of opening up. I stand on mountain tops believing that avalanches will teach me to let go.”…Shane Koyczan

I recently read this quote in my Free Will Horoscope (the brilliant Rob Brezny). It has been pressing upon my consciousness for several weeks now. While it immediately made me think of the Hanged Man in the Tarot, the card of Surrender, to me it seemed to be more about what happens when we are able to allow the art of opening up and believe we can learn to let go.

We have all been there; dealing with a life event of pain, suffering, guilt, loss, anger, shame, or whatever it is that has bound us, trapped us, left us hanging out to dry. We try to process it, work it out, understand what happened and “what next.” Friends, who may be tired of listening to the story repeated to them say, “just let it go.”  I always felt that if I only COULD let it go – if I only COULD move on. I wanted to. I tried to.  I could not.

The Hanged Man tells us there are other realms, other ways, other opportunities if we can but trust. It is not an overnight process. I like to think of this card as when we are up all night pacing the floor back and forth, filled with angst. While we pace, we run the same old story over and over through our head but no inspiration or answer is found in that rut of linear thinking. Then something just trips us up, pushes us over the edge and we experience a sort of fall; we just can no longer hold that unresolved pattern any longer. And as we fall, we find we are supported, held by an unseen force or power. We drop out of that linear realm where we are trapped and find ourselves suspended into a new dimension – a void – where we have room to just fall apart and come loose. In that place of hanging we drop into silence, into a place of non-action, of suspended animation. Our resistance is futile. We are held, we are hung out, and we finally let go.

And out of that other dimension we start to hear the answers, feel the hope return, find ourselves again in space, realigned to our higher self rather than trapped in our limited mind set. It is not a matter of degree or why or judgment; whatever has brought us to the Hanged Man did so because it was time to accept, time to fall, time to let go. Time to receive grace.

There are many levels of the Hanged Man. Sometimes we are launched over the edge without any warning by a disaster. Sometimes, fed up with what is going on, we run yelling and screaming and jump over the edge. Anything is better than this! But the quote about the flowers and avalanches felt to me more like an unraveling rather than a surrender; a graceful coming apart inspired by beauty, wisdom, and the magic of life itself, opening up to an expanded awareness.

The featured card shows a person held by the tendrils of a lotus blossom hanging down through an egg shaped enclosure filled with the night stars – the field of unlimited possibility. In the surrender the aura expands and the chakras open revealing a pendulum of balance. There is a sense of true power here, of discovery and even freedom. In this suspended time and space we come to know that anything is possible; even to be able to let go.

May flowers and avalanches guide you.

…Kathryn Ravenwood  3/23/16

 

 

THE TOWER OF DESTRUCTION

Original Writing by Kathryn Ravenwood

2.11.16  

From the Rider Waite Deck                      

                            

The Tower of Destruction. Just reading or speaking those words elicits fearful images of gloom and doom.  Lightning strikes a tower, people fall from it in certain disaster.  But is it really so bad?

A Tower event is typically when the Universe pulls the rug out from beneath our stubborn feet. We have had plenty of hints and warnings that the way we are doing things is not working out so well. Maybe we are “stuck” in a job we hate or a relationship that is sucking the life out of us. We have procrastinated taking any action for any number of reasons – fear, lack of vision and planning, or not mustering up the energy to move on. Finally divine intervention occurs; the heavens unleash their fires and finally the stuck energy is released in a catastrophic fall. But this is no fall from grace. This is a fall from that which has been holding us back, restricting us, keeping us separated from the more highly spiritual evolved being we are becoming.  

We gradually build up our Towers. Maybe they arise from self protection, our fears or habits. But rise they do. Brick by brick we mortar our towers higher and higher. We get used to the view from up there. We think we are safe and protected in our established routine, treasured practices, and mindsets.  We think these bricks are supporting us and, maybe for awhile they do, but eventually we have locked ourselves into a restricted place far above the needs and realities of our present lives. After all, they are bricks, solid, immovable, blocks with no flexibility. 

From The Cosmic Tribe Deck

In the Cosmic Tribe Tarot Tower we see the Tower is made of televisions which are all on fire.  The figure falling has a look of peace and bliss. This is one of my favorite Tower cards as it is a strong visual of just how easily we can create these towers of ours. We believe what our favorite programming tells us; we keep running the same stories over and over like a summer season of bad re-runs. Finally, we experience the Tower and are given the opportunity to have a fresh look at things.

What bricks are in your Tower?  There is no judgment upon them. They are there for a reason and have probably served you well; but beware! Get ready for a fall as the Cosmic Lightening strikes, offering up another danged growth experience - er - opportunity!  That opportunity is the next card in the deck  - the Star. After the Tower falls, the dust settles, and the smell of brimstone begins to wane, we look up and realize our lofty view had been blocked by the very habits we thought were supporting us. We see that getting fired from that dead end job was really about freedom; that the breakup from the unhappy relationship was a lesson in self trust,  that allowing our current notions of spirituality or lifestyle are now outmoded, that Spirit is calling us to be more, to look up and step up to our Higher Self and our  Guidance, to remember that isolating ourselves in a narrow tower is holding us back. It is time to be more.

And yes, sometimes Tower events really are an “act of God”… illness, death, the total destruction of a home or family. I am not addressing these in this article as they are not mine to explain. Why do really wonderful people die in a car crash and some “drunken low life” lives through it?  We may never “get over” these kinds of events but hopefully, at some point, the Star of understanding is revealed. I pray it is so. 

So if the Tower has toppled for you lately, look up and reconnect with the Star of your higher wisdom.  If you can’t see it, call on Spirit to guide you. Sometimes we forget to do this until things are really bad.  Are you working from a blueprint of impending disaster?  Every day is a chance to begin anew.; and maybe, just maybe, you will be able to say “bring it on! Let it fall! I am ready to move on, ready to move upward!” 

….Kathryn Ravenwood 2.11.16

LIFE AS RITUAL - 

Written for Goddess-Ink. Blog

Original Writing by Kathryn Ravenwood - January, 2016

You are preparing to do a ritual, maybe for the New Moon, Solstice, or to invoke a special goddess. You sit with Spirit, asking to know what is wanted of you. You set your intentions, visualize and assemble all the items you need to make the altar – the appropriate colored cloth, candles, incense, statues, offerings of the elements. You choose or write a chant or song, and plan each detail of the ritual. You gather your smudge supplies and your regalia. Before the ritual you carefully prepare yourself, perhaps with a ritual bath and sacred oils, to step forward as Priestess of your Circle. You take time to center, to be sure you are aligned with Spirit and the intention of your ritual. You invoke your Guides to be with you to serve the Circle, the Goddess, and this ceremony to the best you are able. When it is time to begin, you gather the Circle together, call in the Directions, and enter into the realms of ceremony. After everyone goes home, the altar is taken down, the candle drippings cleaned up, and you are finally alone again, you give your thanks to Spirit for the inspiration, guidance, and for being able to safely hold space for all the participants. You go to bed with that wonderful feeling of having done something beautiful, powerful, and transformational.

And then, in the morning, you hit the snooze alarm three times, finally get up and realize you are going to be late, rush around getting ready to go to work, grab some coffee and head out the door. The traffic irritates you and you find your patience waning. You arrive at work frustrated and jump right in to the pile of tasks awaiting you. You might wake up to a family member demanding help on a task they could easily do themselves. Maybe you get your tea and settle in to your email or morning news on the TV. About half way through the morning you think, “what happened to that Priestess from last night? Where did she go?”

We seem to forget that we are the Priestess of Our Own Life and the ceremony goes on 24×7. This most powerful of all rituals is constantly in need of intention, awareness, preparation, celebration, and Divine Guidance. Like all rituals, we have created altars to support our life: we may have a Directions altar or one for our personal guides. We might remember to sit and draw a Tarot or Oracle card for inspiration, to pray or smudge the house at least a few times a week. These altars seem to be the ones we are more able to bring conscious awareness to.

But what about the other altars all over our homes that we are not consciously working?  There is the altar of the refrigerator door, the bedroom floor where we have casually tossed a variety of offerings, and the altar of Facebook, which seems capable of overpowering all others. Have we forgotten our songs of praise and instead chant a litany of complaints and excuses? Do we keep an altar of our past mistakes? Are we immersed in mindless routines, forgetting to be aware of our actions or intention?

How do we find balance with “real life” and “priestess life?” We must stop separating and integrate the two. We are the Priestess of Our Own Life and  ritual is what holds us on that path. We all have obligations to meet; work, family and relationship challenges, friends to keep up with, chores to do.  Life as Our Ritual requires attention, intention, action, invocation of higher wisdom, gratitude, offerings, and time to clean up the candle drippings of our messy, complicated lives.

Take time to visualize what you need and want in your life in the present time. Do you need a forgiveness altar? Is it time to invoke a deity to help you clear out what is dead and no longer serving you? Visualize, purify, make an altar that you actually will work and pay attention to. Take down the ones whose energy has gone flat. Write sticky notes, make a vision board, smudge often, sing, chant, dance and pray. Practice being aware of how you are moving through your day.  Priestessing our life ritual is a lot like correcting our posture; we have to be aware we are slumping, have sat for three hours without a break, and we need to move. Are you gulping your food? Be aware and stop and chew slowly, bless it, thank the beings who gave away so you can have it. Bless your body – however it is today – listen to your words, feel your heart.

Life is a process we learn as we go along. We are never perfect, never finished, but we can refine our life with presence of mind, an open heart, and conscious ritual.  Blessed be!

Kathryn Ravenwood is a Priestess for the Water, a ceremonialist, shamanic guide, and teacher, author and reader of Tarot.  She has studied the Mysteries for over 40 years and offers personal consultation for spiritual growth.  

Find more information at http://www.kathrynravenwood.com

THE PAGE OF WANDS

From the Hanson Roberts Tarot

Original writing by Kathryn Ravenwood

The Page of Wands has been showing up in a lot of readings lately. Whenever I see a card “trending” for many people, I think it is a good idea to pay attention to the message it brings. In this case, it is perhaps a double message as the Pages of the Tarot are often called the Messengers of the Tarot.

This Page is dressed for traveling; staff in hand, a disc of the sun around her neck. She is full of enthusiasm, energy, and seems undaunted in calling out her message even though it seems no one but the mountains are there to hear. No matter; the Page of Wands is inspired to share her passion and joyfully does so.

To me, this Page is calling on us to reconnect with our vitality. No matter our age, we occasionally feel a resurgence of our purpose and are inspired to have a fresh start. The card prior to the Page is the 10 of Wands, the card of burdens and hardships. We may have been caught in great struggles and have felt there was no going forward when the energy of the Page comes upon us and we are suddenly ready to get out there again, go for it - whatever “it” is. We find ourselves energized and, as the song says, “on the road again.” 

Are you shouldering so many burdens you are unable to lighten up, shake loose and go exploring? If the Page of Wands called to you could you hear her? Maybe you are one of those who has heard the call. How have you responded? Have you embraced the new energy or have you muffled the message and continued to plod along, toting the weary load? 

Pages are the beginning of the Mastery or Court Cards of the Tarot. Pages are eternally young, love to learn and do new things. They have not yet gained enough experience to be judged too harshly for mistakes. They are encouraged to actively play, learn, experience life. They are beginners, not masters – yet. As Normandi Ellis reminds us, we are always in a state of “eternal becoming.” As long as we are alive, full of the Fire of the Wands of the Tarot, we have the hope and will power to apply that sacred fire to the sacred path of our life. 

I encourage you to call on your Page of Wands and connect with this vital and joyful energy. Get out there. Do something new. Shake up the routine. Explore. Play. Have some fun. You might discover and new calling in your very soul that will inspire you to become more than you knew you could ever be.

…Kathryn Ravenwood  1/14/16